don't really feel like updating blog much. i don't even look at blogs much anymore. been in and out of depression for like 3 months. part of it's family. part of it's future. part of it's watching my dog suffer. part of it's being away from him. part of it's my insecurities and worrying about girls whisking him away. . mostly just feeling like I'm physically and mentally trapped in a bubble with a small straw to breathe from. i'm contemplating just running away to the states. perhaps try to support myself barely and live on my own or with bf or near bf or near brother.. but if i get braces that's just like another thing to deal with. so much complications. can it be done? am i crazy?.. i'd probably die. oh. i'm going to china with my dad in about a week to get my health checked, check on uncle, and maybe some wandering. kinda excited. hopefully i can take some photos.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
got a haircut.. it's like a short medium length mullet...yuck -___- . i miss my flowy hair. it feels like grass now. i also got a webcam from bestbuy.com... because my built-in one broke. Logitech c510. it's good! or i like it. gots some pretty fun effects on it too.