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got a haircut.. it's like a short medium length mullet...yuck -___- . i miss my flowy hair. it feels like grass now. i also got a webcam from bestbuy.com... because my built-in one broke. Logitech c510. it's good! or i like it. gots some pretty fun effects on it too.

don't really feel like updating blog much. i don't even look at blogs much anymore. been in and out of depression for like 3 months. part of it's family. part of it's future. part of it's watching my dog suffer. part of it's being away from him. part of it's my insecurities and worrying about girls whisking him away. . mostly just feeling like I'm physically and mentally trapped in a bubble with a small straw to breathe from. i'm contemplating just running away to the states. perhaps try to support myself barely and live on my own or with bf or near bf or near brother.. but if i get braces that's just like another thing to deal with. so much complications. can it be done? am i crazy?.. i'd probably die. oh. i'm going to china with my dad in about a week to get my health checked, check on uncle, and maybe some wandering. kinda excited. hopefully i can take some photos.

bros bros

these images are being hosted by imageshack because my flickr has no space :(. hmm, need to get a pro flickr account soon. been thinking about switching to Canon too. what to do..

I spent this weekend with some friends - Grace (bro's GF aka my seester), Leif (old roomie in SD), and Kallen (funniest girl on the planet!). They're all my bro's grade. I think deep down, in my heart, I'm really only 21 :). We went somewhere called " shinny's " and ate chili dog and gelato. We didn't really do much else, but hanging out with them is always a fun time; especially cuz Kallen's stories are always so hilarious and entertaining.

this is my friend kallen !

and this is my love.

I think sometime this week would be our 7 months. (we don't really have a day.. lol). Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming or something. If there's anyone's thoughts and opinions I care more about than anyone else's in the world, it's his...I never really knew how it felt like to be sick to my stomach jealous until I started dating him. He's in California and I'm here... and it's like slowly killing me. Living with my family has been kinda difficult; it's complicated to explain, I just feel super suffocated here. I've gotten more headaches here than ever before and my hair is falling out like crazy. Remember all those times I said I missed Guam? I don't know about that anymore. I think America's the place to be...land of the free. He's asleep right now (on skype)...wish I could fly there and lay right next to him. I love and miss him so so much...

rotary sushi

Sushi Tairyo Guam

I finally ate sushi after a month of waiting. Two weeks ago I ate at Sushi Tairyo. It's a rotary sushi place in Tumon next to a bunch of other sushi places. It was alright.. There was a lot of fried food that I kinda wanted to eat, but I had a sore on my mouth a couple weeks ago. I was kind of nagging my parents to go eat sushi. We ate almost $50, and weren't that full yet. It wasn't really satisfying and I felt kinda guilty for letting me have sushi that day. Earlier this week I ate at a restaurant called Benii with my cousin. They also had rotary sushi... not so many choices though. In my opinion, the fish was way fresher here... the salmon was super moist. I luuurrve raw salmon. I didn't bring my camera dammit... but the interior decor was super cute...full of paper lanterns. Good place to take a date;)

In other useless news: I added a search bar on the left side. I hope it makes navigating specific topics easier. I've been watching a lot of Law and Order lately. Hmm I bought a basktball today... a girl's sized one -__- "28.5"... I dunno, I liked the grip! I'm excited for basketball season:).


+ 니다

The other day, I wrote Korean on myself just for fun. Honey, if you're reading this - saranghaeee ♡

i feel sooo lazy..

but, In my mind, I want to do so many things.



I'm cooking lunch for my family tomorrow. SPAGHETTI!!! semi-Filipino style :)

days go by

I went exercising on the beach at like 6:30am the other day with my mom and her friend. I wish I had that... a girl friend that I can go on jogs with... talk about random personal shit with. I feel like I can't really talk to people because I feel like I'm burdening them. That, or I just feel really awkward when talking. I've been kind of lost for a while...Sometimes it's hard for me to eat. nothing feels satisfying. I just eat to refrain from being hungry I guess. I don't know what I'm doing with my life right now... just going with the flow, I suppose.

Anyway, It was the first time I set foot on the beach since I arrived 1.5 months ago.. We ate Subway right after. I got a 6-inch tuna sub... what I always get. and a can of orange juice (interesting...) It was so refreshing. I LOVE OJ. My mom tried waking me up this morning to go walking again, but I refused. I was still sore. We're going again tomorrow. I have 4 hours to sleep. I just drank a Mr. Brown coffee. good thing coffee does absolutely nothing to me.